heavy on my mind

hello friend.
me, you and my thoughts have been parted for too long................
the question of why i want music has been heavy on my mind for quite some time now...is it self-serving? is it my desire or God's desire? is it beneficial to mine and others eternal life??? all of these questions have been rolling around in my head, and this is what i've come up with...
My goal for creating my own music is this....for it to feel kind of voyeuristic at times, like looking at things that i dont want to see. songs like these have got to get out there. That which is hidden is empowered. So let my songs be the enemy of all that is a shadow in my life, let these songs be my hymns to a generous God, the father of lights. Let these hymns be the enemy of the counterfeit. this is the cry of my heart.
so, you tell me.