WHo are we?

Psalms 8:3

"when i look at the night sky and see the work of your fingers-the moon and the stars you have set in place- what are mortals that you should think of us, mere humans that you should care for us? for you made us just below the angels, and you crowned us with glory and honor.

Again, i get this lonely feeling, (not like i dont have any friends, just that i am so small). i am so insignificant. really, it is condescending to the lord for him to love us, and to listen to our prayers, let alone answer them! he is so merciful. I am overjoyed with what the Lord has been doing lately, he has blessed me beyond measure, and i am finally humble enough to admit it. IT'S WORTH IT! give your life to the lord because you have NOTHING to lose, you'll only gain from it. people will be drawn to you because you radiate the love of God. we are to spend oursleves on the poor, we are to love the people that are hard to love, we are to give up ALL of our desires, and let the lords desires become our own. REAL christians are like christ, they care enough about people that they dont just leave them to their self. NO, we are supposed to get invloved in peoples lives....disciple people for the sake of Christ, as he discipled the church in his time. Oh man, i could say SO much more, but i have to go to bed. anyways, i hope that you will take this into consideration because i know many "good" people who, judging by today, they wont make it to heaven. These people believe that they are saved but have no clue that first off, its only by God's mercy, and second, that they need to be christ like to be in heaven, thats why its heaven. nobody that lies, cheats, steals, doesnt love the broken, murders (literally or with their words or thoughts), and who dont stay awake and keep their eyes on the goal are going to heaven, it wouldnt be heaven if they did. this is not to say that we are perfect, but we CANNOT abuse the grace of God....if we do, we have it coming because the Lord is certainly a God of not only love and grace, but also righteousness and justice. By the way, just because the lord doesnt respond immediatley (like in the old testament) by stiking you dead on the spot for sinning, doesnt mean that he doesnt notice or care about it. food for thought my friends....and, just so you know, this isnt meant to be pointed at you, i am just sharing what the lord is doing with my heart, and mostly pointing the finger back at myself. he is showing me what it means to be one of his disciples. because i reprsent the God of the universe, i want to be an example that he will be proud of, so that when i finnish the race, the words i will hear are "well done my good and faithful servant".

Love Love Love.

Stuck for life

Do you ever get an overwhelming feeling of being stuck with yourself? Where ever we run, wherever the sun finds us when it rises, we remain bound to oursleves. this happens day after day after day. i have so many voices dividing my soul, each one fighting for a place. Yelling to be heard. Why am i so divided against myself? i am polluted. i feel like a failure until i become one, then all the entropy finally dies down. but as i've heard, the truth will set you free. This is what i am living for, the freedom of my soul. none of the diversions of the world offer me any peace or unity. praise God that i have caught glimpses of the truth, and thats where i am running. I know of only one who can lead me on.

Love Love Love.

Words cannot express it

I actually dont think that words can express how absolutly fantastic and amazingly wonderful the show i saw last sunday was. it was played by the greatest band that i know of. you probably know who it is but just in case i'll just say it... SWITCHFOOT. but seriously, words cannot even express how great it was. it was unbelievable. okay, i know that it is really cheesy to be such a "Fan" (i hate that term by the way), so i prefer not to think of myself that way. yes it is true, i am in love with their music, their passion, their deep thoughts, and their purpose, and i suppose i also must admit they are very handsom. this technically describes a fan "fan" is but still...i am just an.....admirer.

I have been struck with lonelieness...(yes this eventually relates to the above information...lol). not the lonelieness that you feel when you dont have any friends, the lonelieness that you get when you realize how small you are. compared to the world and everything it holds, i am nothing. there have been many times when i have tried to convince myself that if the guys from switchfoot knew me, if only that opportunity arose, that i would be different to them, that i would be special, not just some random "fan". well i have recently, come to grips (although its always been buried deep in my heart) with the simple fact that that is not the case. it sounds super pathetic i know....but please dont laugh. So now that i have come to terms with that, i realize that all of my world rests on God's love for me, how special i am to him. It is still really kind of disheartning to realize that i will never amount to anything special for the guys of the band, because i admire them so much (oh, and you would too if you had read everythign i had read and listened to everything i have listented to...oh man, you dont even know! lol). But anyways, the world has no place in my heart...it has nothing to offer me that has any eternal value. so, to be certain that my life will be worth something for eternity i am focused on grounding myself in the holy spirit, being willing and ready, taking on anything that comes my way as an opportunity to prove my faith.

Love Love Love.

past regrets and long laments

okay, this comes from a broken heart: Make the most of your regrets. . . . To regret deeply is to live afresh. Everybody has had regrets, so it would be stupid of me to ask you if you had. my mind is drawing up blank right now, so basically what i am trying to say is:

"if you really regret something, most of the time it is because of a revelation. a revelation is worth absolutely nothing unless acted upon."

Love Love Love.