Its raining outside, the strains of switchfoot are slipping out the crack in my bedroom door, my journal is lying open waiting to absorb whatever thoughts i feel like pouring out, and reflection on the irony of life leads me to ask..."why havent i commited suicide yet?" It must be by the grace of God. There is so much life in the world, so much insight that people have to share, so much to do, so much to give. And thats all fine and dandy, but what about all of the hopelessness and despair...it seems to steal away any peace that the world has to offer. And suddenly all of my thoughts slip away as I realize that if my hope was in what the world has to offer, i would be long dead by now. AHHH...HELLO SUNSHINE! i absolutely love it when the lord gives me a revelation. How greatful i am that the lord has given me something to hope for, i cannot express in words. Anyways, just an update from my life.Love Love Love.
11 comments:
My dearest lovely,
the simple thought you think of suicide puts me in hysterics. Being one of the most positive people I know, it kind of freaks me out to think that even the THOUGHT has crossed your mind. >shiver< But you know the Father, and it is well. I was thinking of that song "It is well with my soul" and then I was playing it, and reading the verses, it really is a strong song.
hello again!
/Whatever troubles are breaking through/
Whatever fears are waiting on a queue/ to take over and blind you/
just remember what He's done for you/
just remember (heaven's view)/
just remember you're not alone tonight/
Sometimes it's just a little bit frightening/to think you're at the edge of letting go/and falling through and forgetting/who's who and who you love/
It's the best time to die tonight/cold and dreary with no one watching you/but remember who loves you/
just remember what He's done for you/
just remember (heaven's view)/
just remember you're not alone tonight./
I can't remember who does it or anything, but it's got pretty piano music and it's called Just Remember. I thought you'd like it.
-your lovely
Oh, man, first off, that song is so sweet. thank you! it is encouraging. second, you dont think i am a nut case do you? every one thinks about suicide at least one time or another (i think) not seriously of course, but it can cross your mind. well, i love you. you are my lovely!
maddison
nut case? no.
You're not a nut case and I doubt you could be one if you wanted to.
Yes. Everyone I think does contemplate suicide at least a few times in their unhappy junior-high years. But rest assured, God has given us a much stronger will to live.
You know, it's a shame I'm the only one that comments and ( I think) looks at your blog, because it's got some really good stuff on it. I say stuff for lack of a better word. The information and ideas are brilliant, and the color scheme very nicely done. I'm sorry none of your other friends find the time to write. Each blog is very uplifting and encouraging. Most of them (I think all of them, actually,) insert Father as your hope, which is truly a hard thing to say and believe since there is no physical proof that can be done over and over again. (well, there's the universe, but people just don't wanna take the hard facts.)
I will see you on Monday, and I know that I've kept your stuff WAY to long, and I meant to return it on Wednesday, but I forgot to give it to you. >sigh<
-Anna
I don't know how 2 of these got on here...the computer was being a dolt again. sorry!
When you've got the chance, could I borrow a minute?
thanks!
yeah, sorry this reply is so short (i am at aleya's house and dont want to be rude). I can delete the comment that posted twice, and i will. oh, and about none of my other friends posting, well you know, maybe they just forget i have one, thanks for the encouragment! love you way more than the sun is brillianT~
Maddison
oh, and what do you mean, borrow a minute? i am free any time you'd like to call me! lol...
People should read this.
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