"Physics tells us that everything on this planet will fail us eventually. Trust someone, fall in love: your scars will tell the same story. Entropy, pain, beauty, love, hope... mix them together and call it living. The choice that remains is where we go to find meaning and truth. The biggest failures and disappointments in my life have led me to look beyond what money or power or friends can buy. When you're face down at the very bottom of who you are, and there is no formality or pretence to cling to, all your masks fall off. In this broken place, our lives can be seen for what they are, no more no less; we are ourselves. The question is this: What happens after the twin towers in our lives fall? Do we become bitter and hateful or does redemption come into focus? I've been on both sides...only one is beautiful."
4 AM is a great time of night. The day before is long dead but the morning is still to come. All the commotion from the night before has died down and every sane and upstanding citizen is asleep, or at least tucked in. It's a great time to sit outside, i should do it more often. You've got the world to yourself for an hour or so, its so peaceful...even the stars look different: awaiting dawn. I feel the same way that the stars do sometimes. Anticipating...the night is nearly over, the day is almost here. ahhh....sounds good doesnt it??
i have come to a realization that the letdowns in life we experience are beautiful when we view them as letdowns, realizing that our hope is deeper than the two-dimensional computer screen in front of us. but i think the problem with hope is that oftentimes, we get sold a hope that is only skin-deep; it's kind of like a band-aid. Things'll get better and you kiss it and hope it feels better--but the problems still remain and the wars are still going on...the wars in our hearts.
It seems as though my soul is always digging deeper, deeper than i would like. it is always hungry for answers to the hard questions of life. Most times, my heart is longing for far more than what i have at present. my heart even goes so far as to tell me that everything is meaningless. you know what? all of these things seem to strike me at the most unexpected times, often in the midst of vagrant daydreams, restlessly lying awake at night, and even in the face of a beautiful sunrise. So, i have began to wonder, "does God, well maybe....perhaps he uses the quiet moments in our lives to remind us that we should raise our voices, and the loud, chaotic moments to tell us that sometimes we need to take a break in the midst of life and just "be still and know that he is God". He so badly wants to get to know us....he wants to know each and every one of us, but he cant if we dont allow him too. So, take chance on love, and love him with your whole heart. your life depends on it.
